Envy

How envious can I be?
Why do I desire what he has?
His life and possessions
The adventure and triumphs
Openness and trust
Love and understanding
He is everything I wish I were
He speaks when I am silent
Goes on where I turn back
Loves when I fear to feel
Understands what I do not comprehend
Communicates when I cannot find the means
All this is the basis for my jealousy
Hardly logical
For I am god in his universe
I created him
For I am the author and he my character
I speak through him
He is my voice
Yet I still envy him

-megazone, why do I write anyway?, 8/15/92