Disclaimer/Notice: Sailormoon is not mine, but I'm just borrowin' the characters. This story is rated R becuase of sexual content and is not to be read by minors or immature brats. Otherwise, enjoy! In this moonlight, I feel so free. In this darkness, I am no one. In the night is when I can see. In lavender skies, I will run. I am myself. I am alone. I am... "Usa." In the Garden of The Forgotten Moon By Mishi Kawaii Usagi's eyes stared lazily up to the white ceiling. She watched contentedly as the light bounced off the walls, creatinga spectrum of colors on it's eggshell white surface. A sigh escaped her lips as she looked forward. This was hard, very hard... she thought with desperation. I didn't think it would be this way. I thought that it would come so easily. A pair of warm arms fell onto her shoulders, causing Usagi to gasp in surprise. She turned and saw the face of a god... a smiling man whose hair was as dark as the mystical night, and eyes as blue as the forging seas. "Usako... having trouble?" he asked, as his hands wrapped themselves around her. Usagi blushed darkly, causing a warm, but sympathetic smile to cross the young man's face. "I see," He murmured softly into her ear, "it's your first time." Usagi nodded weakly, as tears sprouted in her eyes. Did she seem foolish? Was she still but a child? "Yes. It is." She admitted, as the tears built up in her starry sapphire eyes. Her pulse quickened as he tightened his grip around her,and looked down. "Okay then," he said, "I'll help you." He said, sliding his hand down from her shoulder. She blushed as he reached down and lifted up her... Notebook? "Usagi-chan, what have you been doing? You've done your homework all wrong." He said, holding the notebook in his hands. Usagi sighed, and shrugged. "That's the problem. I don't know because I haven't been at school, Mamoru-san." She said flatly. Usagi looked to her book, her pages filled with scrawls and erasure marks. "Well Usagi-chan, why don't you get a tutor? Maybe Ami-chan can help you." Suggested Mamoru, throwing her book to her. Usagi watched sadly as her book fell before her in cold silence. Her heart broke. He didn't hand it to me, she thought wistfully. Has so much changed between us Mamo-chan that you can't even touch my hand? "That's why I'm in the library, to study. Why are you here Mamo-chan?" She asked. "I'm meeting a friend." Mamoru answered quietly, turning away. "And please don't call me that... you know of my feelings." "Oh yes... of course..." Said Usagi sadly. "Your feelings..." Does he have any? If he does, then I certainly don't know of them, unless you count ice as a feeling... maybe one of bitterness... *** 'Mamo-chan you can't go! I love you, I NEED you!' 'Usagi-chan, just go away! I don't want to see you anymore! It's over between us. I don't want you to call me, I don't want your pet names, and I don't want you following me around. It's over.' 'Mamo-chan...' 'It's over!' *** "Well, I guess you should get back to your studying." Said Mamoru awkwardly. He turned his head to leave, but Usagi caught onto his arm. "Um, well I was wondering if you could help me... Mamoru-san? At least, until your friend comes?" She asked, still clinging onto his arm like a small child. Her blue eyes looked earnestly up to his, begging for a 'yes'. Those innocent eyes, Mamoru thought, that sweet, serene face. Oh Usako, why are you so perfect? Why do you love me still? "Help you? I don't know..." Mamoru looked at Usagi, watching her face crumple up in regret. "I guess I could. For twenty minutes?" "Sure!" Exclaimed Usagi. She took out a fresh piece of paper as Mamoru went to go sit beside her. This might not be much, she thought, but it's enough for me to be happy. Anything... is better than without being with him. Pip pip pip pip pip pip pip pip pip... "And that's how you do quadratic equations." Finished Mamoru. Usagi nodded and looked down to her paper. "Wow, this actually makes sense! Not even Ami-chan could help me with these." She turned to Mamoru, her eyes bright and glowing. "You've been such a great help! Thank you!" In haste, she threw out her arms and hugged him, surprising Mamoru. Mamoru's mouth dropped and his eyes popped open. This was not expected. He wanted to push her away, remind her of before... remind her of his feelings. But as her soft warm arms held him, her tiny hands rubbed his back, and her soft cheek laid on his chest, all those thoughts, all those memories, all those feelings fell dead in his mind. *** 'Usagi-chan, I have something to tell you...' 'Mamo-chan, what is it? And why are you being so formal? Is something the matter?' 'Usagi-chan... I can't see you anymore...' *** Mamoru dropped his pencil and hugged Usagi back, holding her in his embrace tightly. Usagi looked up, surprised at Mamoru's reaction. What's this... what are you doing Mamo-chan!? She thought. Her face grew a bright red as his embrace tightened. He's so warm now... why was he always cold? She felt his body move and saw that his face was leaning towards her own. A warm flush rose to Usagi face, as she felt her lips draw to Mamoru's like a magnet. Her heart raced as he pulled her close and then... and then... They kissed. Magical sparks rose in the air, as the real world drifted behind them like a lazy summer's dream. It was only them... in their own place, in their own time. In their own fantasies. His lips kissed passionately, tearing at Usagi's soul. Mamoru's breath was hot, and his body, scalding. She kissed back weakly, not being able to match the strength of Mamoru's kiss. He feasted on her, to him, she was a rich dessert. Her skin, the finest cream and honey, her cheeks, red summer cherries. And her lips... the most potent wine. Usagi felt Mamoru's lips pry open her own, as he slipped his tongue in. It slid across her own, mingling their saliva together, as he explored her mouth within. Sighs escaped Usagi, mournful sighs of times before... times when this meant something more then a burst of passion. *** 'Mamo-chan!' 'Usako, I love you. You mean more to me than my life. I want us to be together forever.' 'I love you too... my Prince...' *** She felt something on her thigh, something hard and warm. Usagi pulled back out of his embrace, and out of the dream they were in. He looked back to her, a shocked expression of realization crossing his face as he saw where she was looking at. "Usako... Usagi-chan... I'm sorry... I've lead you on..." He muttered, standing up quickly. He walked away, dropping a rose as he left. Usagi gasped and stood up, walking after him quickly. "Mamo-chan!" She cried, picking up the rose. People in library stared at her strangely as she grasped the rose tightly in her hands. Thorns dug into her skin, causing trickles of blood to run down her hand. She didn't notice, nor did she feel any pain. The liquid that came from her eyes stung more then any thorn could. The tears fell faster, as she ran outside trying to find Mamoru. You haven't lead me on... you pushed me farther away! She thought, as she ran down the library steps. Where are you Mamo-chan!? Where have you gone!? *** 'Mamo-chan, you just can't do this. You love me... I know you still love me!' 'Usagi-chan, I don't. Please don't make this any harder.' 'Mamo-chan, you're leaving? Don't leave... don't leave.' *** She stopped, and collapsed to the ground in heart broken tears.The rose fell from her hand and faded away, as all of Mamoru's roses did after several minutes. Usagi closed her eyes, the tears still staining her cheeks. "I've lost him. I've lost him... despite our past, despite our battles, despite my love... I've lost him!" She sobbed, burying her head in hands. "Usa.." She looked up, locking eyes with a pair of cold blue eyes. She gasped, and reached out to the eyes, the tears still running down her cheeks. "Oh Mamo-chan!" She cried, reaching towards him. He stood still, as a cool autumn breeze flew through the air. His face was like stone, expressionless and stubborn. "Usa..." He bent down and took her hand, squeezing it tightly. Usagi gasped as she saw tears in his eyes. She reached out to brush them away, but he turned away, letting them run down his cheek. "Oh Mamo-chan..." She whispered. "I'm such a fool, crying in the streets like this for you. It's no wonder you don't love me anymore... I'm still just a child." She looked down, as her tears dropped to the ground like tiny crystal globes. They splattered on her pleated skirt, leaving dark blue stains on the material. Mamoru put his arm around her, but she brushed it off softly. "Go... go to your 'friend'. It's not just a friend, is it Mamoru-san?" Her face darkened, as she stared to the ground."Does she call you Mamo-chan? Do you kiss her goodnight, and good morning too? Do you tell her how much she means to you... and how you'll never let her go?" She then looked into his stormy eyes, her face pale and grey. "Do you love her more than me?" *** 'Tell me again Mamo-chan.' 'Again? But you've heard it a thousand times!' 'Please, just once more.' 'All right. Do you see thatstar? That's right, the one up there. Now the one next to that one. And the next one. And the one after that.' 'Yes, I see them.' 'Good. Can you count all those stars in the sky, Usako?' 'I can't, there's too many.' 'Usako... the number of stars in the sky can only begin to count the number of ways I love. I love you with all my heart, soul and mind Tsukino Usagi.' *** Mamoru's eyes looked up, and saw the pale expression on Usagi's face. He grimaced, causing Usagi's eyes to drop again. "All right then. I'll stop bothering you." She said, standing up. She turned around and began to walk away slowly, her face wracked with tears. "Usako... there is no 'friend'. There is no one." He called out. She stopped walking, but didn't turn around. "No one?" She asked. Usagi turned around, and looked down to Mamoru who was still on the ground. "There's no one? Then why Mamoru-san...?" "Usagi, I lied. I lied to you, I lied to my heart, I lied to my devilish soul. I love you. I love you so much that al the women in the world could not interest me for a second. I love you so much that all the poets in the world could not even begin to explain my love for you. I love you so much that I die when you are gone." He stood up and grabbed Usagi's hand, his teary eyes locking with hers. "Mamoru-san..." She murmured. "I'm going away Usagi. I'm going to a place that you can't see me everyday, you can't hear my voice, or touch my heart." He grasped her hand tighter. "I'm going to Harvard." "America? You're going to America!" She gasped. Mamoru nodded sadly. "Yes. I thought that if I tried to end our relationship, it would be easier on the both of us... but it's made it all worse. I don't want to go but..." "...you have to." She let go of his hand and hugged him tightly. "Oh Mamo-chan, I don't care where you go, I just want your love. I'll die without your love." "I'll die without you, Usako." He said, kissing her cheek. He then proceeded down her face, and onto her neck, his sweet kisses tailing down the ivory post. Usagi groaned, and tangled her hands in his hair. *** 'Do you ever think of other women when I'm gone?' 'Why would I?' 'I don't know... because they're prettier... smarter... more graceful... better then me.' 'No one is better then you. You are the only one I think about, the only person on my mind.' 'Do you love me then?' 'I love you.' *** "Usagi-chan... Usako... would you like to take a drive?" Mamoru asked, breaking away from his kisses. Usagi rolled her eyes playfully, and shrugged. "Well, it depends on where we're going." She said coyly. "Well, I've made a special reservation at the infamous Chiba residence." He said, his voice lowering. "Oh, well then I guess we should go, hmm?" Answered Usagi. She grabbed on to his hand, as he escorted her to his car. Usagi cautiously got in, and Mamoru shut the door behind her. As they started to drive away, Usagi looked back at the library, remembering about her books that she left inside. She shrugged mentally, and continued to stare out the window as memories passed in her mind. *** 'Mamo-chan... why are you so angry all of the sudden? Have I done anything wrong?' 'I don't want to talk to you right now. Just leave... please.' 'Mamoru...' 'Leave!' * 'I... I...' 'Usagi-chan, what's wrong?' 'Oh Mina-chan... he... Mamo-chan... left me...' 'Usa-chan, what are you saying?' 'Mamo-chan broke up with me!' *** "I said, we're here." Usagi turned around, startled to see Mamoru holding the door for her. "Oh, so we are." She said, stepping out. "Is something the matter... are you all right with this?" Mamoru asked cautiously. Usagi stood up, and walked up ahead. "Yes," She said, "Everything is fine. Everything is just fine..." *** 'But what about all that we've been through? All the battles, all the enemies... what about that? And Chiba-Usa... Crystal Tokyo... have you forgotten?' 'Maybe it was a lie. Maybe it'll never happen. I don't know, but this feels right Usagi-chan. This feels right.' *** "Oh Mamo-chan..." Usagi breathed out. He was kissing her on the neck again, as his finger teased her breast. She moaned again, feeling her pulse quicken at his slightest touch. "You know," he said, taking his lips off her for a moment, "this elevator ride can't last forever." "I know." She said. Suddenly, they heard a ding, and the doors flew open. "But that's why we're going to your place." Usagi ran out the door, as Mamoru grinned after her. How could I have ever tried to break up with her? He wondered. But then, I couldn't, no matter how hard I tried to convince myself, I just couldn't end it with her. "Mamo-chan, I waiting!" Cried Usagi down the hall. Mamoru dug into his pocket, searching for his keys. "I know I had them a moment ago..." He said, standing in front of the doorway. Usagi got a worried look on her face, and walked up to Mamoru. "Did you lose them?" She asked, looking to the ground. She then saw a shiny piece of metal dangle in front of her face. "Got you." He said, jingling the keys on Usagi's nose. She giggled, and grabbed the keys from Mamoru, opening the apartment door herself. As they walked in, Mamoru kissed Usagi on the mouth. The door closed clumsily, as they hastily made their way to Mamoru's bedroom. "Mmm...Mamo-chan..." Usagi muttered through the kisses. Mamoru fumbled with her blouse, trying to pull it off without taking his lips off of Usagi. Finally, the shirt came off, revealing Usagi simple white bra. *** 'Mamo-chan... I bought something today at the mall.' 'Really what is it? Some cookies? Manga?' 'No... it's something different... it's something to wear...' 'Oh... oh my..." *** Mamoru's hands slipped off the straps of Usagi's bra, as she unbuttoned his white shirt. His lips kissed her shoulders as the straps fell down. Usagi groaned, feeling her stomach boil at Mamoru's heated kisses. "Mamo-chan... I love you..." She whispered, undoing the last button. She kissed his chest, tasting his salty skin. "I love you so much." "I love you too. It hurts me sometimes, the way I love you." He said, as he undid her bra. It fell to her lap, revealing her two white globes. Usagi gasped as his lips fell onto her hard nipples, caressing them with his tongue. His tongue flickered overthe delicate buds, causing ecstatic squeals of pleasure from Usagi. He then began to suck her erect nipples, only makingUsagi's screeches louder. "It hurts when I love you this much." He muttered again. Usagi moaned as his hand grasped her right breast firmly, massaging it. Usagi's body froze... he knew all the buttons to push. "Mamoru-san... my Mamo-chan..." She whispered. Her hands fell to his lap, as he continued to rub her hard nipples. She undid his belt and zipper, pulling down the pair of black slacks to Mamoru's knees. Mamoru's lips released themselves from Usagi's breast, and he watched carefully as she pulled down his underpants, revealing his large, hard manhood. "Oh," She said, "I guess it does hurt when you love me." Usagi dropped the boxers and placed her hand on Mamoru's shaft. She cautiously traced her finger up the length of it, causing shivers down Mamoru's spine, and his body tingled with excitement. Usagi smiled and bent her head, kissing Mamoru's belly. She then proceeded lower, leaving a trail of fiery kisses on the way. Finally, she reached his manhood, licking the cap of it slowly. Mamoru grunted, as the soft licks of his lover mind his mind numb. "Usagi..." He groaned. Usagi kissed his steel, letting her hand rub it's length once more. "Oh God... Usako..." *** 'Usako... are you sure? We can stop.' 'Mamoru, I love you. I want to be with you. Always.' *** Mamoru's mind was like water, while his belly, a pit of fire as he felt the velvety lips of Usagi over himself. The urges within him were growing stronger, as his mind became frail and disordered. Usagi felt his passion rise, and took her lips off of his manhood. Mamoru groaned, and grabbed Usagi by the hips, pulling her close to him. He smelled the air, swirls of roses and vanilla, clouding their lover's den. "It's my turn now." He said huskily, pulling Usagi to the bed. he then kissed her belly as she did before, making Usagi squirm in delight. He kissed and kissed until he could go no farther. "Oh, I see we have a little problem." He said, pulling down her panties. The slid down Usagi's quivering legs, and she moaned in anticipation. "Well, I guess the problem's solved." Mamoru's hands kissed her thigh, and the outer petals of Usagi's gentle flower. He then thrust his tongue in, deep inside Usagi's womanhood. She gasped, feeling a sea of passion boil in her womb as his tongue kissed her insides intimately. Usagi's gasps turned to moans as Mamoru continued to thrust his tongue within her. Her breaths were quick, and soon, she didn't feel as though she were breathing anymore. "Mamo... Mamo-chan..." She groaned, as he slipped out his tongue. Mamoru groaned too, as he felt his blood pump quickly through his veins. Or maybe it wasn't blood... maybe it was just the love he felt for his Princess, his Angel, his Usako. "I need you... Mamo-chan I need..." Mamoru kissed her lips, and stood up. She quieted down as she felt his long manhood between her legs. He teased her with the tip, inserting it partway in her. She groaned, as her honeyed love dripped out. Mamoru's member thrusted in, causing Usagi to gasp. He grinded his body into hers, savoring the feel of his lover's insides. Usagi began to moan his name, as passion arose between the two. Her hair fell around her like a sheet of gold, as her body glistened as bright as stars in the dark night. Mamoru whispered huskily to her as he moved deeper within. Her body convulsed as she felt her insides burn, his thrusts growing more powerful by the minute. Mamoru's hands fell onto her breasts again, molding them in his hands like a lump of clay. Usagi cried his name continually, as her body quivered for release. Usagi shivered, as she felt her body peaking. Her muscles tightened around Mamoru, bringing new sensations within his soul. He gasped out her name, each thrust bringing him closer to his own pinnacle. She trembled as she cried his name once more, her love flowing all over him like rain in a barren desert. Mamoru's steel thrusted into Usagi again, as his husky cries joined her own, drowning in their sea of ecstacy. *** 'Mamo-chan, did I disappoint you? Was I as good as... the others?' 'Usagi, how can you even compare 'them' with yourself? You are all I ever wanted, or needed.' 'Was I good enough for you?' 'You are like no one from this world Usako.' *** Usagi's eyes openedslowly, revealing a hazy world. She squinted her eyes, barely making out Mamoru's bedroom door. She heard a murmur and turned her head to see a sleeping Mamoru beside her. He opened his eyes, and smiled, still groggy from the sleep. "Good evening." She said, smiling. Usagi cuddled up to Mamoru, who yawned loudly. "Good evening, sweet Usa." He felt her golden hair fall onto his chest, causing a tickling sensation. A feeling he had missed for quite sometime. Usagi looked up to Mamoru, her face drawn with regret. "Mamoru, will this all change when you're gone?" "What do you mean?" "I mean this... being together, holding each other, kissing you, seeing you. This is all going to change..." She closed her eyes, as big tears trickled down. "Usagi, it won't change. It hasn't changed from the time you were a Princess, and it won't change even beyond the end of time." "But Mamo-chan..." "Usagi, I love you. It won't change." ****************************************************** *New Tokyo Airport* "So... this is it, I guess." Said Usagi. Tears welled up in her eyes, as she watched Mamoru pick up his bags. "You're going to America. A land with so many possibilities..." "Usa." He whispered. Mamoru dropped his bags and grasped Usagi in a tight hug. Usagi hugged him back, as the tears spilled down her cheeks like waterfalls. "I'll write, and I'll call you. Usa, write me lots of letters." Usagi nodded weakly, as he looked into her eyes, the tears still falling from her clear blue eyes. "I will." She whispered, not letting go. "Flight 218 to Massachusetts, U.S.A. Last call for flight 218." "I have to go now, Usako." He said quietly. Usagi nodded, as her hands slipped away from his shoulders. Mamoru began to walk away, but then reached into his pocket, pulling out a small box. "It's a present... so you'll remember me. Open it." Usagi took the small box cautiously, and opened it. A dazzle of light shone before her eyes as the box opened. "A ring! Mamo-chan!" Usagi gasped as she stared at the gold circle. It had a heart shaped diamond on it, which glistened warmly in the sunlight. Mamoru took the ring out of the box, and slipped it on Usagi's trembling finger. "I love you. I want us to be together forever." he whispered, taking her into his arms. "Marry me, Usa." *** 'Usako, why are you staring at me like that?' 'You're like a dream Mamo-chan, a wonderful fantasy that continually replays in my mind. When I look at you, I thank God that He brought us together, to live in this marvelous dream. I never want to wake up. I want to stay here forever...' *** The End! Dedicated all my friends, my co writers, and all who believe in the miracle of romance! P.S. Memi... this one's for you! Hello! This story was actually my second hentai story that I wrote,but was never published until now because it was very poorly written, spelling and grammar mistakes flew rampant, and basically, it sucked. But, I really liked the story line, so I decided to re-vamp, re-edit the whole thing. Hope you all like it, and please feel free to coment on whatever you like. NOTE: In case anyone was wondering the "Pip pip" thing was meant to symbolize the ticking of the clock. I saw it in the Sailormoon manga, volume 16, and thought it was pretty cool. :) _______________________________________________________ Get your free, private e-mail at http://mail.excite.com/